So it is indeed up to me whether I affirm Salvation (adoption) or reject it based upon the freewill that God gave every person since Adam at the price of Original Sin.
Unsaved men have a will in bondage to self.. it is only the grace of God, a work of the Holy Spirit in regeneration that again gives man an ability to choose not to sin, to no longer be slaves to sin and to desire to see and understand that Christ has saved us from ourselves and our sin