Because it just seems to me that it’s not healthy for you. You just seem to air all your personal baggage against the Catholic Church time and again, attributing to ALL Catholics what you unfortunately experienced yourself. The rest of the world isn’t like that all the time.
In case you haven't noticed, the vast majority of your co-religionists are very vocal in their Biblical criticism and their uniformitarianism, and I notice that those of you who disagree very rarely, if ever, rebuke them or even try to offer balance.
How in the world do deal with the cognitive dissonance of feeling at home in an organization in which your beliefs are rejected and scorned by a majority of the members (or at least the loudest ones).