Stay Safe !
As long as you work as hard as you can each day... As long as you never give up and are open to change and learning... As long as you pray for guidance (prayer is the key in the morning and the lock at night)... As long as you keep God as your partner and follow His counsel... As long as you learn from those who succeed... There is hope. There are those who when drowning, are too proud to cry out for help. Don't be afraid (nor too proud) to utilize all the resources that may be available to help you. I wish you well, brother. In the end, you may gain more insight into the real purpose of life than the proud and arrogant ever will.