Somebody as bat-guano crazy as you is far more dangerous than any Mormon ever thought of being.
"...strongly advises its members not to affiliate with organizations that are secret, oath-bound,or would cause them to lose interest in church activities."[Salt Lake Tribune Section D1, Monday Feb. 17, 1992]
"Shall I tell you the law of God in regard to the African race?
If the white man who belongs to the chosen seed mixes his blood with the seed of Cain,
the penalty, under the law of God is death on the spot. This will always be so."
Second President of the Church, Brigham Young, 1863 (Journal of Discourses, Vo. 10, p. 110)