Are you asking me that as a personal question or a rhetorical one? Are we going to discuss theories/beliefs or is this going to turn into a argument? I would love to have a discussion about this, I truly struggle with it... but I won’t have a argument or or use personal attacks or turn it into anything personal.
The answer to that question is meant to be a personal one. It is one that I thought would help you with your own question because it helped me on this. I have no desire to argue it with you, only to give you what I found to be one of many helpful tools when I struggled with various abortion questions including the big one of imposing abortion restrictions on others.
I could share with you my changes on the issue over time but they would not be relevant to your own work on it.