Unless you have completed stacks of paperwork and gone through formal hearings you are still a member of the Catholic Church.
Find a priest that you can sit down and talk with and get your questions answered.
I invite you back at any time. We will welcome you with open arms. After all, the first person into heaven after Christ, was a thief................something to think about. The church is for sinners, not for those who judge themselves above sin. Christ is here for all of us.
That is not Church teaching.