Thanks for that, it's early yet here (and I didn't sleep well) and I'm not expressing myself well at all. Freedom of the will is exactly where I had problems. I didn't feel like I had it anymore. I felt like my every move was being judged and everything had to be geared towards my new found faith. Where most people feel like they've let a great love into their life I felt I had let a harsh taskmaster into my life.
Now I don't know why that's what happened. I don't use it to judge anybody, anything or any God. I just know that it didn't sit well with me, not one bit, it became a rash on the back of my brain. Maybe I'll come back someday, but I seriously doubt it. I'm really happy being an atheist. It makes good sense to me and leaves me able to function without fear of what some supreme being might think.
Yes, it certainly sounds like you ended up in bondage to a religious set of principles. I will pray that you will be granted the freedom of the presence of Jesus Christ in power and great joy.