For not much longer.
Why did you bother in the first place?
“For not much longer”
Certainly that is true for all of us in the grand scheme of things.
You can believe what you want and that is your right.
What I would say to you is that, you being a Human Being have an innate ability to have ambition, dreams, goals, and the fortitude to do your best to achieve them if you so desire.
The human conscience is a great mystery. The ability to reason is found there. You know deep down inside this little “virtual existence” that we are living in has an end and there is a big beyond it. Folks that tell themselves otherwise have bought a massive lie. Even most atheists think there is some form of afterlife.
Whatever your circumstances in life are currently these have nothing to do with the end game for you. You can choose victory or defeat. Victory is provided and it’s yours if you want it - but you have to want it.
Forgive the gambling analogy, but choosing Jesus is like a Winning Lottery Ticket. You can accept it or tear it up. Your choice, but that ticket in your hand is the jackpot winner regardless of what you do with it.
Jesus absolutely loves you with a love that is indescribable.
Matthew 11:28
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
I pray you find that rest that so many of us have found. It’s a life-changing experience.