Still wrestling with that one.
The “Big Bang” theory leaves me empty and raises just as many questions as religion.
I find it comedical that atheists “know” there’s no god because they have no more proof there isn’t one than believers who insist there is
Both rely on faith and not physical proof.
I wish I wasn’t a fence sitter because I loved to think I would be reunited with loved ones in the afterlife and that there’s more than just living in the present. Seems....selfish.
The simplest answer is usually the right one. We were created. God wants to have a relationship with us. Sin separates us. He can't tolerate sin. WE have to change. We have to become perfect. We have to do all in our power to meet God on His terms. That means getting on our knees and praying for guidance. That means reading the Gospels (First four books of the New Testament) until we understand what Jesus went through and risked for us.
The life we have here is uncertain. Scary. Chaotic. Heaven is orderly, serene and beautiful. Time does not exist there. All of your questions answered and you will know joy that you have never known here on earth.