I’ll also add that, as a father, I’ve come to realize I can guide a kid but I do not control the outcome. If a kid wants to rebel against God, he/she will. It really is true: You can lead a horse (or kid) to water, but you cannot make him drink!
I hear you!
I’m sorry to hear that you are suffering from that as well.
I have two young ones that I pray with and teach them about The Lord daily. I hope The Lord never lets them fall away, but I would be naive to think that it’s possible that they may.
My brother is was raised in the faith, did a full public baptism and profession of faith and is now living like hell and on his way there if he doesn’t wake up.
The road truly is narrow.