I've tried time and again throughout my life and got nothing. Other than a sickness as a child, I've never prayed for anything for myself that I recall.
I used to believe death means non-existence. It's like before our Mother's egg was fertilized - we just didn't exist. However, I have come to think that once becoming a sentient being that we may have developed a connection to a supreme being in some manner.
I don't believe in a heaven or hell as in biblical terms. If anything, our connection or soul if you prefer melds with the creator of this amazing universe. That's why I'm an agnostic and not an atheist.
The Bible does say that "many are called but few are chosen" (Matthew 22:14).
And someone said to Him, “Lord, are there just a few who are being saved?”The time is growing very short.And He said to them, “Strive to enter through the narrow door;
for many, I tell you, will seek to enter and will not be able."
Luke 13:23-24
“If anything, our connection or soul if you prefer melds with the creator of this amazing universe.”
ok, so your view is less Deistic/Epicurean and more Hindu i.e. Sanatana Dharma - or maybe Pantheistic.