Sounds like you’re pretty mad at God.
How can I be mad at a god that doesn’t exist. The “God” that I believe in bears no resemblance to the god depicted in the Bible. That is why I usually refer to it as a creator in an attempt to avoid confusion as when you say god most jump to the conclusion that you mean the god of the Bible.
Also I am not mad at Christians as they have an right to believe as they please as do all the other religions of the world, as long as they don’t interfere with the rights of others. I just believe that they have been misguided.
I usually refer to Deism as a philosophy rather than a religion as rather than an organized pathway to belief it is a personal path guided by my own observation, reason and logic without the dogma required by religions.
Anyway my reason for entering into this discussion was to show that religion was not required to live a moral life, what ever that is. The bases of mine and Deists that I know of our morals is the idea of the Golden Rule. It is said that it was Jesus’s idea, but you can come up with it pretty much with common sense, reason and logic.