The most powerful thing in the universe, which can hardly be put into words without shouting and jumping about, gets translated into sleepy rituals, repetitive songs, and beautiful but unmoving recitations.
I once prayed that God might reveal Himself to me even more than He has and the answer I got was that if He did so "you will be even crazier than you already are."
That seems to be a major problem.
We worship and love the Creator of the Universe--the Source of our Salvation--but we can't comprehend him without going mad with ecstasy.
I get it.
But it makes church dull as dishwater.
Like you, a few of us are in the odd duck category. My own dilemma is similar. Stuck in my case, in a diocese so watered down by now it’s a flooding, and hours and hours of drive time to the nearest old Traditional Mass.
I want more of God, and to strive for more “madness”, as you said, and not accept decline and pedestrian level faith of convenience and donuts.
Thank you, Rooster! You put it so well.
Hence God’s reply to Moses “No man can see my face and live,” thus did he hide Moses”In the cleft of the rock”(yes an old church hymn...”he hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock”) and allowed him to see the “hind parts of God” as God passed by. Yet a funny thing...the scripture records Moses as speaking with God “face to face”!. A contradiction(?)...I don’t think so. God’s inner face and Moses’ Inner face or inner man were in direct communion...even if Moses couldn’t physically see God’s face and live. That will come later when he and we have our glorified bodies...then we will be like Jesus for we will see him as He is and in turn we will be able to behold the Father as Jesus beholds him! No, you won’t go crazy then!
You say this like it's a bad thing...