I’ve been there. There’s little sympathy for widowers as opposed to widows. “Why weren’t you able to save her?” I have heard by way of consolation. Widowers are socially radioactive.
The Catholic Church esteems singleness (priests, nuns) above the married state. They almost expect the widowed to enter a monastery.
I was blessed; an Army colleague whom I had known professionally for years suddenly became an attractive woman interested in marriage (same exact age as my first wife).
I pray that you find a new spouse. The smug advice of those still married doesn’t help. Don’t know what to say except yours is the most honest reply to this thread. Best of luck.
Thanks. I can use all the prayers I can get.