**God is there no matter what happens.**
It sounds like you have gone through the dark valley of grief just as I have.
I was a team member on the Beginning Experience team and it helped me greatly.
Everyone always says that they think they have dealt with it all and then when they get to the BE weekend they find out they are still hurting.
And remember feelings are OK, it’s what we do with them that matters.
God bless.
Thanks. Earlier this year, I was told I have myasthenia gravis. Then a few weeks ago, the ER dr said I have a pinched sciatictic nerve. I told a friend I was falling apart. I can still smile, laugh because God is on His throne. Amen!