This is not an attack, but you’re still an Episcopalian??
It might seem strange to some.
My father's family was Episcopalian. My mother's family was profoundly puritanical, as was she; I never liked puritanism. I love the Episcopal Church for many reasons, one of which is its reasonable and practical approach to the divine. It has given me a structure of sorts from which to find deeper and deeper understandings, the foolishness of many Episcopalians notwithstanding.
Jesus Christ is my Guide and the only One to Whom I will entrust my immortal soul and rely upon--unconditionally--to lead me and protect me from any and all evil influences; I trust His guidance absolutely and completely. I made the commitment to follow Him wherever He should lead me at a very early age. I have never wavered. He has never let me down; on the contrary, He has brought me to a place very close to heaven on this earth. This commitment has taken me through many unexpected experiences and away from the Episcopal Church to a great extent but ever nearer to God.
This is deeply personal for me. I tell you this because I believe your question is sincere and one that I would not disregard.