God showed me one day that my worrying was because I was a control freak and felt like I wasn’t in control.
And basically, I was a control freak because I wanted to control how the situations came out and didn’t trust that if anyone else were in charge, it would happen *right*.
Including God.
He showed me that my controlling tendencies were because I wasn’t trusting HIM to provide as He said He would and to work out all things for good.
Who better to trust to control things? Me, who doesn’t know beans about what’s going on around me or God who knows the beginning from the end, for all time and eternity?
And I didn’t trust Him to make the right decisions?
What a wake up call that was!
We dealt with that, confessed and repented, and I have peace now like I’ve never had before.
Amen sister.
I was the same when I used to worry the restaurant could never run without me. It was years ago, and I long ago gave up restaurant work.
I was so bad I would take my wife on a date. To the parking lot across from the restaurant to see how things were running when i was off and my supervisors were running things.
On vacation in Montana, I spent so much time on the phone checking in, that my wife made me end the trip early.
Yea, I too was a control freak. So much so I was a lousy person to be around. Almost cost me a relationship with the only woman who had ever given me a chance.
I too found myself on my knees asking Him to take it away, so I could live, and those around me could like me.
Life is so much better with Him in the driver seat. Now I can see the scenery and actually enjoy this world He created for us to enjoy.
I resemble those remarks but the difference is I am still a work in progress. I will take your remarks to heart but I can tell you now that I will still sit with a wall at my back and a view of the door and any avenue where one might approach me. Evil is a foot in the world and we ignore it at our peril. God helps those who help themselves. I am glad for you and will try to follow your example while sitting in my corner seat.