Do you seriously suggest that Mary hid in the house her whole life?
We are called to go out into the world and shine the Light. Good thing the early disciples understood — and did — what the Savior asked.
I can’t admire someone who opted out.
You make at least two mistakes:
1 ) The same one her father made: “Thinking nuns didnt work, [my father] would say ”
2) Prayer has no value for the world.
I will be praying for you. I ask all good Christians to pray for this one. Praise Jesus and Hail Mary ( like the angel said)!!!!
You might want to read In this House of Brede to understand the life of the cloistered.
It is not at all an opt out.