I understand what you’re saying. Just as I knew my old church wasn’t the one, I just knew it in my heart.
The great thing about this is it is not just my, but my Aunt. We have been learning over the past years we are SO two peas in a pod!
Only difference is she has the patience of a Saint and I have none! All of my weaknesses, she seems to have double.
Her weaknesses, I have double (she is now the matriarch so I can’t really use them).
But we know. Very weird how life turns out.
You’ll do well, the two of you. Your aunt sounds like a fine woman and a great companion on this mission of yours. Maybe what appear to be weaknesses are more a sign of a healthy letting go of worldliness, of recognizing that we’re all sinners in need of forgiveness, and that the forgiven are commanded to forgive in kind?
It’s funny, being middle aged myself and watching my older family members age, how they firm up their resolve in some areas and ease off in others. It seems to strip away the superfluous and hones a focus on the things that really matter, particularly in spiritual matters.
But, a desire for an untainted church in this age is perfectly understandable as well. We’re immersed in the consequences of so many falling away. Church should be a haven from worldliness even as you forgive (but not accept) the sins of others, having benefiting from the amazing grace of God in receiving forgiveness yourself.
It’s all really a rather amazing thing. This world is a vapor, so much misery and pain but so much beauty and love, sometimes all wrapped up together.