You stated you ‘become a God’...and according to this post now,... that apparently “you’re relying on Jesus for salvation and for this he will make you a God.”
” Many....will say to me on that day..”Lord Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?.....”THEN” I will tell them plainly,.... “I never knew you........away from me you evildoers.”.........Matt 7:22
I would suspect if you keep up with your belief, (he is going to make you a God), you could very well find yourself “trying to to break down the doors of heaven to get in” as you mentioned.