Thanks for sharing those two very moving stories. Sometimes in these situations, the Holy Spirit does take over. I really don’t remember that much about my husband’s funeral except that I cried a lot and that many, many people came forward to speak about him.
I know grieving is like a flowing river sometimes you can’t stop it. It’s not an on/off button. It just happens without the controls.
When my mother, who had ovarian cancer, was dying, I remember going through a period of panic. I had no peace at all - I felt stress 24/7. Then, while at work at my desk, all of a sudden this peace came over me. I have never experienced anything like it. It was almost like a “blanket” of peace and it was so overpowering. I couldn’t have worried if I wanted to.
My dad is battling cancer so I’m going through it all over again. Still, I feel more peace than I did before.