Please get professional help. Your account of the St. Thomas affair makes no sense at all, and representing yourself in court in a case of that type is nuts — especially when you can’t even be consistent about whether it was state court or a federal court. It’s not a “blessing” to have your life in perpetual disarray, and imagining that it is, is just another sign that you urgently need professional help.
Yeah, it didn’t add up to me, either.
Representing myself in Federal Court was a wonderful adventure. It was a Federal court located in the southern district of Florida (just to be consisitent) and the Eleventh Circuit Federal Court of Appeals. I learned more than I could have possibly imagined about myself, the law, and God. And I do attribute every good thing in my life(including bipolar)to God. I’ve never heard anyone prove that He does not exist. Anyone who tries is living on faith just as much as I am.
I completely agree with GovernmentShrinker.
Bipolar disorder, like major depression is a chemical disorder.
You CANNOT think you way out of it. It’s not your fault and no decent person will blame you for it. It is a biochemical illness, and there are many new medication that can successfully treat it.
Please seek help. You cannot do this alone.