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From what I understand about Alex Murphy's religious teachings, I can only do what God has decided I can do.
If, as you say, I “really don't care”, it is only because I am following God's will for my actions, according to Alex Murphy's teaching that is.
***From what I understand about Alex Murphy’s religious teachings, I can only do what God has decided I can do.***
Nope.
You are born in sin, and can only repent of that sin if God, through the person of the Holy Spirit, quickens you unto faith in Christ.
If God doesn’t show you mercy, He is glorified in His justice.
If God does show you mercy, He is glorified in being merciful.
Your objections are answered quite clearly in Romans, chapter 9. Take up and read.