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Your words are precious to me as is this Scripture you posted and all you said in your FREEPMAILS.

Alas, my spirit and I believe His Spirit within me is requiring me to take a different path. It is somewhat mystifying to me—in spite of what seems so clear to so many others.

God has persistently led me through seemingly rarely trodden paths—and not uncommonly where there was no path—just light for the next step. I’ve often felt like a raving loon crying in the wilderness. Yet, somehow, He has brought even my worst to good as I’ve surrendered it repeatedly and daily, to him.

In a way, this is a bit of a new adventure. It sort of feels like I’ve been robbed of a major tool in my pack. And, while I have great and intense affection for, and allegiance to the fruit of The Spirit . . . I know that Holy Spirit also has some very interesting and atypical yet still Biblical tools in His pack that can often or even tyypically be mystifying and incongruous. Things are often not linear.

Nevertheless, tiki is right, shower insights have an uncommonly high hit rate. And, I’m convinced that this is the path I must currently trod.

However, I’ve never known The Lord to take something significant away without giving something better in return. It should be interesting to watch for that and see it unfold.

Though my commitment is serious & firm about such on the religion forum, I don’t really expect that such a change in writing style will be 100% across the board in all areas of my life forever. I could be wrong. But it’s just a hunch.

I am somewhat puzzled and grieved . . . commonly considered “loving” words and styles which are gentle and winsome seem to be chronically and easily forgotten, normally. But that will have to be God’s concern and await His solution.

In any case, Dr. E, YOU ARE an abiding treasure in my life regardless of our theological differences. I shall eagerly await that day on the other side of Jordan when such differences are wiped away forever.

And, between now and then, I shall always treasure your zeal that I resonate so much with—as well as your prayers and friendship. Yes, it feels somewhat like a capitulation to evil. And, I, too, am sad about that. But I believe strongly that God is working out something still mysterious in all of this. And I shall have to trust Him with that and proceed forward a cautious step at a time.

It has been my experience and observation in the other situations similar to this in my life—that those who think they have won the battle on the other side and from other perspectives are also in for some surprises from The Lord. We shall see. I do know that He wastes nothing, in the final analsysis. Everything is always grist for the mill in everyone’s lives.

Why am I so often the ‘point person’ taking it in the chin, the groin and elsewhere? Why am I so persistently ‘God’s fool’ doing the mystifying incongruous thing and suffering accordingly? Why am I so experienced at being tasked with repeatedly marrying a prostitute and running around with egg and worse on my face to guffaws to the max?

Evidently because I was created for such purposes and for such a time as this. At least that’s the way HIS SCRIPT has played out so very often in my life and it’s been very clearly not as much my doing as some would suppose.

BTW, I should clarify for some who might assume that I’m committing to saying absolutely nothing that they would take the least as offensive. I am not that much of a miracle worker. I am committing, if the voting continues as it seems to be, to avoiding the overtly fierce, dramatic, bitine satire, mocking, ridicule. I’m not making promises beyond that about my writing style etc.

I would caution you, Dear Heart Dr E . . . all of us have plenty of darkness—sin nature—loose in and around us such that any of us could break out in dastardly expressions should God pull His Grace back from us just a little. None of us has any reason to feel superior. It is likely that some of us see many theological things better than others. But also that others see some theological things better than we do. Contrition and humility are wise for all of us in all circumstances.

I do grieve and mourn a bit, a part of me that is seemingly being crucified, buried, extinguished—at least hereon. But I have to trust God to work out His purposes and His redemptiveness in that, however improbable it may seem at present.

I shall forever remember your kind and passionate words to me in this battle. And while I consider the battle really not against flesh and blood but against the deceiver . . . I recognize that each of us can play myriads of roles in such battles. And it’s particularly comforting when so many seem so inredulous that I could exist at all—much less with such sensibilities, patterns and priorities—it has been and will forever remain most comforting that once upon a time . . . a Precious Dr E understood me above average.

I’d better hush before my keyboard gets soaked.