I know how personal this is, but I’d like to make a comment about my own experience.
I left the church after Ted kennedy was granted an annulment from a 25 year marriage. Also he was publicly pro-abortion and received communion.
Each time i have considered coming back something erupts, child molestation and cover-up, Mahoney in LA and others refusing to cooperate with the DA’s offices and the pope leaving him in office till the crisis subsided; abortionist and politicians who supported them receiving communion, and i can point to a few others.
if you like to attend church as part of your love and worship of God, there are other places to go. or you can build your own religious practice through prayer and readings and smaller groups.
best wishes and may God bless.
Thank you for your kind reply and prayers. Much appreciated.