We have chosen separate ways.
I KNOW you will stay true to yourself and God, and that is good.
I doubt I will change.
It is what it is.
You can self-determine your separate way, but that sends you to Satan, who in turn is sent to hell.
However “it is what it is” is a blasphemy to God. He is the only “I am what I am.” Everything else is subject to His molding hand.
Anyhow the right thing to do in such a situation is to ask God to show you why it would be worth letting Him change you. And then be willing to hear out the answer. We all can ask to be molded to the ill or the good.
Now if this is all academic of course it won’t go anywhere. But if it’s not, then this is another way of proving out God. For my part, what I bear witness to is that the Lord is not unsympathetic to us being behind our various eight balls. But He won’t excuse us hiding there forever. We get to be the kind of people we want to be.
While we pray you will.
Saul was relentless in HIS wanting to destroy followers of the Way; but he changed.