Posted on 01/26/2012 10:53:52 AM PST by wagglebee
Note: Kelly Clinger, a performer and former backup singer for the pop star Britney Spears, had two abortions when she was in her early twenties. She blogs about her pro-life activities here.
January 26, 2012 (KellyClinger.com) - This morning I returned to the clinic where I had my abortions 12 years ago to pray for and plead with moms not to make the decision I made so many years ago.
As I pulled into a parking spot, I sat in the car for a minute and closed my eyes. I wanted to pray that I wouldn’t fall apart; but before I could utter a word, a movie began playing in my head. I could see that hurting, desperate 23-year-old girl who pulled into this very same parking spot in 2000. And suddenly I remembered it all:
Every room in that building.
The faces of the nurses.
The pictures of angel’s wings on the ceiling.
I remembered tripping on my way to the car because I was drugged and crying uncontrollably.
I even remembered the abortionist’s hands.
Perhaps I was being naïve, but I wasn’t prepared for the flood of emotions that came.
I also didn’t expect to be overcome with compassion for the mothers and fathers who were arriving one after the other and were convinced that killing their child was their only choice. I could tangibly sense the despair and the hopelessness they felt. I remember it so well.
I spoke with Robert and Lucia. They are both 18-years-old, and Robert just enlisted in the military. He said his father abandoned him and if they have a child now, he wouldn’t be around to take care of the baby. Lucia didn’t say much, but her heart was not soft to hear what we had to say. We asked Robert how he could take a vow to defend America and then his first act as a Marine was going to be taking the life of his own child. He came out of the clinic several times and heard our pleas. But he chose death for his child.
I spoke with Beverly who already has four children and said the child in her womb had no heartbeat. I told her we would take her to the hospital around the corner to be sure, but she refused. She even looked right at me as said, “I know that God creates life.” She came out many times to smoke and would cry at the truth of my words. But she chose death for her child.
Matt and I talked to a young couple that looked to be about four months along in their pregnancy. They are both atheists and at first they were cussing at us and saying they weren’t going to listen. After awhile, however, they seemed to begin to soften a bit. She told us that the doctor told her she was too small to bear children and she would die in childbirth. We offered to take her to a high-risk OB/GYN to find out what the problem was, but just as she began to talk to us, her boyfriend grabbed her and took her in. Forty-five minutes later, she came out stumbling and groggy as her boyfriend opened the car door for her. I couldn’t help but think “So now you decide to be a gentleman? You are about forty-five minutes too late.” They chose death for their child.
Of the forty-six women who walked into this abortion clinic today, two chose life. I know that heaven rejoices because those two babies were saved, but I wanted to do more.
At one point, one of the sidewalk counselors was pleading with the girls from outside the window. “You know that girl you were when you walked in that door? If you kill your child, you will never be that girl again.”
I began to weep…grieving that Kelly.
But then I felt such an immense sense of gratitude. While I will never be that Kelly, I am a new creation. I remembered Ephesians 2. I was dead in my sins, but because of His great love for me, God, who is rich in mercy, made me alive with Christ even when I was dead in transgressions.
Me and my hero, John,
who pleads for the babies every day.
As I left, I tried driving through my tears. How do you get past the heaviness that you feel for the babies and for the women who will suffer depression, addiction, suicidal thoughts, and lifelong regret?
However, once I stopped crying, I became very angry…like Jesus-turning-over-tables angry. My friend John, who prays outside of this clinic every day, said that he cannot get one church to support him. He wasn’t even talking about financial support…he was talking about prayer support, sending people to pray, anything.
This infuriates me.
Honestly, this makes me never want to step foot in a church again.
There are hundreds of churches within a 15-mile radius of this Orlando abortion clinic. While they are updating their offices, paying for sound systems, and preaching their fluffy messages, babies are dying…over 3000 a day.
Friends, hear me, we must shake off our dullness and be SILENT NO MORE…and STAGNANT no more!
I am angry with pastors who never mention abortion and will not lend a hand to people like my friend, John. I am angry with those who think that writing a check is enough and never think about actually doing anything for the unborn.
I am angry with Christians who do nothing to stand for the least of these and still call themselves Christians.
GOD.HAVE.MERCY.
I am angry with Christians who do nothing to stand for the least of these and still call themselves Christians.
Until abortion is ended, NONE of us will have done enough.
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What a courageous lady! She is so right about churches today.
I do not accept abortionist who have “realized” the error of their ways. This trash aborted 2 kids and now that she is suddenly calling for life we appluad her? Negative. Now that the act is done, she is suddenly pro life...I am very not convinced her and other abortionist wouldn’t again kill their unborn if the opportunity presented themselves. By telling them we accept them, we are kind of perpetuating the problem ourselves. Having a murderer speak on our behalf on this issue infuriates me. The fact we ask murderers to speak for us is disgusting.
Bump!
Wow. It’s a good thing you’re not God.
Must be nice to be without sin. I know I’m not worthy of the Lord’s mercy because, unlike you, I’m a sinner.
Paul was an accessory to murder, if not a murderer directly, but God used him anyway.
I bet you both vehemently called for Tookie williams to be killled and dismissed liberals using his “recovery” as nonsense. Oh, but because it’s an issue you want and need support in, you’re willing to overlook past actions. Abortion is murder, she has killed two people...yes, defend her. Let her be your mouth piece.
and so was David. We hope and pray for God’s mercy and forgiveness.
Interesting, have you ever read the Bible?
Read chapters 7 and 9 of Acts sometime.
The Apostle Paul was the worst of the worst, yet his conversion was INSTANTANEOUS.
There are tens of millions of women in America who have aborted children, if we aren't willing to forgive and embrace them we have no chance of ever succeeding.
Only God knows the hearts of men. If she is not truly repentant then He knows and will deal accordingly.
Perhaps she is trying to make expiation as best she can under the circumstances.
In any case, she does not speak for me or anyone else; only herself.
But I am glad that God is merciful to the repentant sinner.
The reason we do not permit relatives of victims to sit on juries is that we fear that they will view things emotionally rather than rationally. Being male, and only really knowing one female at the time of her pregnancies well enough to begin to generalize (She's a grandma now!) I might be off the wall here but pregnancy, especially the first one right after the woman knows, is an extremely emotional time. I think it's precisely why women shouldn't be allowed to kill at this time. (I'd extend it to any time too, but everyone who favors abortion favors early abortions, and so that's why I make the point I do here.)
ML/NJ
Accepting it is promoting it.
Accepting WHAT exactly?
Do you mean accepting that they, like us, are sinners in need of God's grace and forgiveness? I certainly accept and promote that.
I guess Jesus was wrong then when he spoke to St. Dismas, the Penitent Thief.
Luke 18:9-14
9 Also He spoke this parable to some who trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: 10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, ‘God, I thank You that I am not like other men—extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I possess.’ 13 And the tax collector, standing afar off, would not so much as raise his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me a sinner!’ 14 I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other; for everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”
It amuses me how y’all interject God concerning a murderer of the unborn in defense of having a murderer justifiably be the mouth piece for life. All while dismissing the same tactics by the left when they talk about repentant child molesters, rapists and murderers of the born.
Again though, I forget, we’re talking about *your* issues so it is ok to be a little hypocritical.
Just curious: are you a Christian? Because if so, you’ve got a very distorted & twisted view of repentance. May God show you more mercy than you are willing to show others. Prayers for you.
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