I haven't been able to eat or sleep for the last couple of days.
But that is nothing compared to what CT is going through.
I feel like I'm torn apart, my son and daughter in law need me to babysit my precious granddaughter (they are both working, as well as taking college classes), and they live 50 miles from me, tomorrow evening, yet I want to be here for CT when he gets home.
My son said he understands, and they can try to make other arrangements, but I feel like I am letting them down. My daughter normally watches Ava Malia in the evenings, but she has parent-teacher conferences the next couple of days.
Free Republic has been my lifeline these last few days, and I see they are on their pledge drive. If all of you can even send $1, it will mean alot to me, and to CT.
Excuse me if I seem to be rambling, I'm so very tired. And again, thank you for all your kind words.
Please continue to keep CT in your prayers.
You are not letting anyone down. Don't think that, don't even say that. :)
God loves you, your kids and family love you, and all of us FReepers who are your extended family love you.
Family first. If CT has others who can be there for him until you are free to visit, then I am sure he will understand.
BTTT
Sometimes our Faithful God allows us to see only one step at a time. Because He is trustworthy, take the one step. The next step will appear as you take it!
It sounds like two kinds of rest would be helpful for you, dear Lisa:
rest in bed; rest in God!
These are my prayers for you, with great thanksgiving for all that God has already accomplished through you!
CT and you are in my prayers.
Have done so.
Lisa, CT and YOU will be in my prayers.
Dear Lisa:
You need to take care of yourself first so you can help CT.
Regarding your family just follow your 'inner voice' and do what it tells you to do.
But right now, please get some rest & good food so you can stay well.
My beloved husband is also having a health challenge at the moment and I have been very anxious. What I've learned works for me is to ask God to hold my hand during this time.
I take time each day to go to a quiet place for a few minutes. Then I sit in silence and repeat: "Be still and know that I am God". It refreshes my soul and I feel at peace.
Remember that so many freepers are praying for you and CT. All those prayer will sustain and strengthen both of you.
God Bless........Julie
Hang tight Lisa.. I know a lot of what must be going thru your mind as you deal with all of these things. Be kind to your self. Trust God for all things. Hard to let go but that is the only way for peace.
Thinking of you both & praying for you both