[GretchenM]

When my favorite grandmother died some years ago, I found it would hit me in waves. I would be at work and found I needed a handkerchief handy to dab the tears. She meant so much to me, one of the two in my childhood whose love was unconditional, and even though I had not lived near her for 37 years, and knew she was with the Lord, happy to be with my grandfather again, I felt the loss of her so very keenly.

I'm glad you are getting on as well as you are. It must be a great comfort that her suffering is indeed over, and forever over, replaced by undiluted love and peace.

Prayers continue for you all.

[MamaB]

I know what you mean. On last Thursday, hubby had gone to bed very early since he was not feeling well. I got on the couch and was watching tv. All of a sudden, I started crying my eyes out for no apparent reason. I cried for about 30 minutes and I was ok, again. I guess it hit me that Jan would not be here for another Christmas, ever.

[snugs]

I lost my grandmother about 13 years ago and again the feelings I have now are very similar to then. In some ways it was even worse with my nan because she was at home right till the end. Somehow with help from a private carer mum looked after her till the end. She had dementia also but the form it took with her was a great fear she would scream if left alone even a few seconds.

She would also cry out at night as well in fact for months after her death I still "heard" her at night. For a quite a few years after as well occasionally I would hear her.