Ever heard of "Mary Sue"? I knew it! You are a fangirl!
My wife told me what the term "Mary Sue" meant, a long time ago. She was once heavily into Trek fanfiction. :-)
I was never into Trek fic. Never. Other fics, yes, and the terms have been adopted in most fandom. And so what if I'm a fangirl? I like it, and I'm not ditzy!