Are you at all troubled that she put research into how to kill her children?
People whose minds aren’t functioning properly do all sorts of crazy things. I can easily see someone doing something entirely out of character precisely because their brain chemistry has been played with relentlessly for months.
I have seem how someone can change on some of these drugs.
Maybe we need to review our understanding of consciousness of right and wrong under some circumstances. We developed certain standards before we started creating all sorts of synthetic psychoactive drugs and handing them out so irresponsibly . A person under severe delusion and derangement may be perfectly capable of carrying out a horrible plan and believing they are doing the right and necessary thing.