Life is a terminal illness. We all die. Keep your soul prepared to meet God. I am a horrific sinner and most likely condemned to hell when my last breath is drawn. But I sure want to make my peace with God. I accepted Jesus as my savior but I am still scared of my afterlife because I know I’m not going to a good place when I kick the bucket. Gotta face that and it is horrible .
If you hadn’t accepted Christ as savior (that last word there means something), then you wouldn’t be worried about your fate after death. The fact that you do indicates you just have a clever enemy who is not only making you think Jesus’s work wasn’t powerful enough to rescue you, but that you are somehow the one and only person ever born on the planet that his grace can’t reach. He went through horrendous things to save us because we can’t do it. Don’t insult him by saying he’s too weak to do it. My only caution would be to be sure you did accept that sacrifice and understand what it means, and you have decided to turn from your own way and follow his.
trust Jesus
love Him
receive His forgiveness
He came to save us sinners
Make peace with God by accepting the peace he extends to you in grace, knowing all your sin; knowing that your human failings are inevitable. I have found that it’s not so much a matter of Getting Right With God (when in fact we can never be ‘good enough’), it’s more a matter of Waking Up To The Reality of God’s Grace. Accept the gift of The Gospel, hold it close in your heart, and you will be with Jesus in Heaven. Also, you are hardly alone! Many, many of us have to come to the realization that “Oh No. I’ve been doing this all wrong!” And then found JC right there to pick us up and keep us going, as if he was waiting all along.
The great horror of most older people is not that they’ll die but rather that science will keep them alive in the way you see old people drooling in wheel chairs in nursing homes. Better to stay healthy as long as you can and then keel over and die rather than add an extra 10 years as an invalid.
Longevity is a false choice. You only get to do 89 twice. You don’t get another 42 or 19. I’ve seen what 89 looks like and frankly I don’t want to do it twice.