I recall that you wrote some weeks back that your wife passed away recently due to a heart attack and the two of your had had a disagreement about something that night. From another post of yours, I know that you are not that old and I assume neither was your wife.
I don’t know how unexpected her passing was—if she had serious health issues or no—but I would say there is quite a message in finding this.
Don’t feel guilty that you had an arguement. If a woman argues with you, it means that she feels safe with you to express a disagreement with you. It’s really compliment to you, as a man, that she feels safe to do that.
She was 43 and I was 40. So yes we were young. She did have health issues, but nothing that was life threatening. Her passing was out of the blue