Well, the whole point of Russian/Chinese disinformation is to spread confusion about what the truth is. You're clearly a victim of that. But as a conservative, you should have the mental fortitude to push through the fog and find the truth quite easily.
To me the only way to know the truth is go over to Ukraine and see for yourself from the front lines, otherwise you are taking the word from someone else on what’s happening and given all the lies the media has told over the years about everything, I’m waiting until it’s all over.