More validation of my choice to never experience fatherhood. As much a blessing would be to have a good kid...the risks are too great for me to take on. My own parents made some epic blunders with us kids...and they were good people for the most part. They did the best that they knew how to do. Nope. Im not ever bringing a human being into this nutty world.
I am sorry for your apparent lack of hope and faith. Before marriage to a good man and becoming a mother, I did not have as much trust either. Learning that my husband and my children really are loyal and trustworthy has been a beautiful life lesson. And so many things I do and have are because of this life purpose that is bigger than myself. Not saying you were called to parenthood, but aversion to it out of fear seems wrong, as opposed to being called to childlessness as part of a bigger, happier journey of life.