I am sorry for your apparent lack of hope and faith. Before marriage to a good man and becoming a mother, I did not have as much trust either. Learning that my husband and my children really are loyal and trustworthy has been a beautiful life lesson. And so many things I do and have are because of this life purpose that is bigger than myself. Not saying you were called to parenthood, but aversion to it out of fear seems wrong, as opposed to being called to childlessness as part of a bigger, happier journey of life.
Single is simple. Single is predictable. Single is sane. Single is lonely. The first three win out and I’m fine with it. But....you are right. Aversion to fatherhood is wrong, as in not natural. Its an abnormal reaction to an abnormal condition...which is normal as far as im concerned. I wish I didnt feel the way I do. It is what it is.
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