‘I would be more guilty than you because I know in my heart how sorrowful the act is to my creator.’
very interesting, considering your creator is, and has been for over 50 years, allowing the same thing to occur that you decry, despite being so much more powerful to stop it from occurring...
yet you chastise yourself, but not your creator...why do yu hold your creator to such a lower standard than that to which you hold yourself...?
Please identify the standard that you want the Creator held to and why.
You do not have an understanding of who God is. Why would anyone with a brain serve a God you describe? Satan is who you are describing and you have no understanding of a perfect God, who will always triumph over the prince of the earth. I will pray that you seek the face of God before it is too late.
You are confusing the Grace of God in HIS long suffering, with the strictest application of the law of God. The Christian God is long suffering, but not negligent. People in works based religions tend to muddle that difference. During the Age of Grace we are seeing coming to an end, The Grace of God offers redemption upon confession to Him of our need for His forgiveness. You and I cannot work for that, to the Glory of Christ it is His Grace to offer redemption, not something He will ever be obliged to give.
Psalm 115:3
But our God is in the heavens: he hath done whatsoever he hath pleased
What?
You want God to force people, including yourself, to do or not do certain things?
We are the murderers. Not the Creator. Contrarily, He did the creating and we do the destroying. He tells us so. We are fallen. He tells us all about that fall and how to be restored.
The first murder was one of Adam’s sons killing another. God did not stop that one nor millions following. He is not obligated to. He has no doubt restrained countless but who can know what “would have been?”
When we fell, sin and death entered the world. You would have liked God to prevent our Fall it seems but He does not our will - he is God, not us.