I was much the same, except I am also attracted to women. Married to a man, though. It’ll be 13 years this June.
Teens, especially girls, going through puberty always hate their bodies for one reason or another, and some more than others. I was a very heavy girl growing up thanks to renal insufficiency that wasn’t discovered until 16, so I wore boys’ clothes, played with boys’ toys, played video games (I was born in the late 80’s) like DOOM and Quake (and their successor shooters), and almost all of my closest friends were boys. Guys still make up 90% of my friend pool.
Even when I was dating in high school, I was a tomboy. My ex didn’t mind. We dated from 14-21. Then when all of the weight came off, I feminized quickly when it came to my appearance. I had confidence, and I think that’s where a lot of this gender confusion comes from. Girls just encountering puberty want to go back to a more asexual past and are confused into thinking they can be boys. Anything to not be a girl.
Yes, being a woman has downsides. My health problems caused havoc on my system, with my longest cycle lasting sixteen straight months. I finally had to have a hysterectomy at about 29. Before that it was a tubal at 19, thanks to said health problems. I never wanted to have to make the decision between my life and a child’s.
But I would never want to permanently alter my body to be, “male.” If I were a teen now, I know I’d fall for this. I would like to think I wouldn’t, but 15 and under me was so desperate to not be heavy that I would have done anything.
Thank you for your very interesting and informative post. Our prayers are with you.
All we see is the book jacket with callous disregard for the plot.
We are all equal before God. Nobody knows what's happening behind closed doors.
Back in the day, men used to stand up for women. Many guys have fallen prey to modernity and nihilism, and won't even open a door for a woman. It's a bad situation culturally.