When my husband of 35 years died totally unexpectedly at 53 years of age, the grief I felt the first 2 years, and at times still feel, can and could never be helped by another human being. Personally I wanted to be LEFT ALONE!! I had zero desire for anyone to be around me.
I’ve found a good church after not attending for a couple decades due to bad experiences in the past with that evil word of faith/prosperity gospel movement, and that is the only thing that finally helped me.
I am very sorry for the loss you have suffered and glad you have found some comfort through this church. Maybe I can find that comfort somewhere. It seems everyone else is still living their life and mine has stopped. Where do you find peace with that?
One of the best things about being a church member is that there is a large support group available in times of loss.
I am saddened by your loss, but glad you had him in your life for so many years and are with a family of believers at church.