You are dealing with the demonic by claiming you have power like that.
You need to repent of what you are doing and turn to God, for your own sake.
It’s not power. It is weakness.
When I died I was no longer attached to the frequency of this reality. That is what Jesus spoke of in dying daily.
When you are weak in self, you have room for higher consciousness to work through you. When you are full of yourself there is no room for it. It’s described accurately in the Bible.