It’s not power. It is weakness.
When I died I was no longer attached to the frequency of this reality. That is what Jesus spoke of in dying daily.
When you are weak in self, you have room for higher consciousness to work through you. When you are full of yourself there is no room for it. It’s described accurately in the Bible.
When you *died* some demonic something convinced you it was God and you are being deceived by dabbling in demonic, unChristian stuff.
Your use of Scripture doe snot support your claims and the powers you claim you have are not Scriptural.