Awwwww! He was the cutest baby boy ever!
Thank you all for commenting.
Whenever I start a thread (which isn’t often, I had to take a look and my stats said “You’ve posted a total of 139 threads and 67,084 replies”, so I talk a lot more than I direct conversation...there is a surprise) I usually like to respond to everyone who takes the time to drop in and comment.
But I had to take a break from the thread, because it is still quite painful for me right now. I shouldn’t have started it on Sunday night, because after I did that, I had a slide show in my head and pain in my heart as I lay in bed, and even two sleeping pills didn’t help. I was useless at work...utterly useless.
I knew I would miss him, but this little guy got his polydactyl paws on my heart, and I ache.
I just ache.
Big tough guy I try to project on occasion, but...I sure don’t feel like one. I feel like the smallest, weakest child who just had his most prized pet leave forever.
Never thought his loss would hurt me in this intense way, perhaps just because I am entering the winter of my life, and these things feel different.
But...I guess there is always spring. I can always hope there is spring.