How sad...my MIL had/may still have what her husband had. There are, I think some better solutions. Charo always seems so realistically happy. Suicide is mean to the family, imho.
You’re in a tunnel when you attempt/succeed.
You don’t see any light and the physical or mental pain has just blocked everyone and everything out.
It IS cruel. It’s not intentionally cruel.
Ya kinda gotta be there to know.
I hope no one here ever is.