Posted on 06/13/2019 6:38:22 PM PDT by Morgana
y partner wasnt supposed to get pregnant. Thats why she had an IUD to prevent the pregnancy we agreed we didnt want. Liz and I have been together for years, and though we had discussed the idea of having children, we knew we werent ready , at least not yet. And yet there we were, two New Yorkers in a Utah emergency room, holding a brand-new sonogram printout. Near the top, a nurse had drawn a white arrow pointing to the six-week-old embryo, and labeled it in big block letters: BABY.
Wed rushed to the hospital earlier that day, knowing a failed IUD can be a life-threatening emergency. Luckily, the sonogram showed that her life was safe, but we were less confident about her rights. The date was October 7, 2018. A day before, two thousand miles away, Brett Kavanaugh was sworn in as a Supreme Court justice.
Kavanaugh had written opinions signaling interest in weakening Roe v. Wade, if not outright reversing it. Many predicted his appointment would open the floodgates for attacks on reproductive rights, and they werent wrong. In the months since Kavanaugh took the bench, at least eight states, including Utah, have rolled out draconian restrictions criminalizing abortion as early as six weeks into pregnancy.
Liz was at least six weeks pregnant, which meant under some new laws, an abortion would have made her a felon, facing a prison sentence up to 99 years as would the doctor who performed the procedure. Under Georgias newest law, had we been residents and left the state to obtain a legal abortion elsewhere, wed both be eligible for long prison sentences.
Sitting in her hospital bed, wearing her paper gown, Liz asked whether I was okay with an abortion. My answer was twofold: First, I agreed with her choice. A baby was the last thing I was ready for. Second and more importantly while I appreciated being asked, my opinion didnt matter. Her body belonged to her, not me, and no pregnancy would change that.
While the decision was entirely hers, Lizs choice to terminate benefitted me. It meant I could continue pursuing the personal and professional life I wanted. The laws that protect that choice also meant I wouldnt lose my partner to a botched back-alley abortion as so many partners, children, family, and friends did before Roe v Wade or to a long prison sentence.
Reproductive rights are not only womens issues they benefit men, too. We dont say that often enough.
The 2018 St. George Marathon was supposed to be Lizs best ever. She spent months training hard for this, her 20th full marathon, and hoped to finish in less than three hours for the first time. Instead, she spent the race miserable, fighting nausea, which we blamed on a change in sports drink. Pregnancy never occurred to us. We knew her period was a couple of weeks late, but with her rigorous athletic training, her cycle was sometimes inconsistent and she had an IUD. The IUD is a tiny flexible bit of plastic that can remain in the uterus for years. Modern IUDs are safe, affordable (often free, thanks to Obamacare) and very, very reliable. But those rare failures come with increased risk of ectopic pregnancy, a life-threatening emergency.
When Liz woke up nauseous again the morning after the race, I started to worry. Pregnancy still seemed like a long shot, but when we stopped by the local Wal-Mart for our traditional celebratory post-race six-pack, we put a pregnancy test on the checkout belt. Better safe than sorry, right? We were both certain the tests would come back negative.
Back at the hotel, we opened two beers and she took the first test. I expected to watch anxiously for a few minutes, waiting to see if the little blue line changed into a plus sign. Nope. It changed immediately. So fast, I thought we must have done something wrong. She took the second test I assume they put two in the pack because everybody thinks that first positive result is a mistake and if anything, that plus sign came up faster. Liz was pregnant. Really, really pregnant.
Most importantly, there was that life-threatening emergency thing. We called Lizs gynecologist, who sent us straight to urgent care who in turn sent us to the nearest hospital ER. Our celebratory beers sat forgotten on the hotel countertop as I anxiously drove the picturesque Utah highways, on our way to the hospital.
We talked on the ride about what came next. If the pregnancy was ectopic, doctors would have to terminate. Since ectopic pregnancy is both life-threatening and non-viable, termination to protect the mothers health is legal without restriction in every state at least for now. But what if this was a normal uterine pregnancy? We knew the laws in New York protected Lizs reproductive rights, but what were the laws in Utah?
The fight for reproductive rights had been front-page news for weeks, as Kavanaugh worked his way through a contentious confirmation fight. Liz and I sent money to Planned Parenthood, we called and emailed our senators asking them to oppose Kavanaughs nomination, but suddenly the stakes felt much more personal. For the first time, it wasnt the concept of abortion that worried us. It was our abortion.
The hospital in St. George sent Liz for an immediate ultrasound, which ruled out ectopic pregnancy. Her IUD had shifted from her uterus down toward her cervix, rendering it ineffective. Its incredibly rare, and the technician seemed surprised that Liz hadnt felt it. Based on the date of Lizs last period, and some measurements on the sonogram screen, she estimated Liz was six or seven weeks along.
At this point, we learned about abortion laws in Utah. The technician played us the embryos heartbeat. She told us the due date and printed a picture for Liz to take home. But first, she took the time to add her little arrow and the word BABY in big bold letters. I quietly seethed watching this. The technician knew Liz wanted to terminate. But under Utah law, these steps are mandatory before a woman is allowed an abortion. Patients are forced to hear the heartbeat, learn the due date, receive pamphlets, and then wait 72 hours before the abortion would be legal.
But state abortion laws vary dramatically, and our home state of New York places few barriers or restrictions on the right to an abortion before the 24-week mark. In fact, just this past January, New York prohibited the criminal prosecution of any person who performs an abortion in good faith.
Since the doctors said Lizs life wasnt in danger, she elected to wait until we returned to New York City to undergo the procedure. A week later, we visited Planned Parenthoods Margaret Sanger Health Center in Manhattan, where Liz could undergo a safe, legal abortion and get a new IUD.
Afterward, Liz wanted to fight the stigma around abortion by vocally and publicly sharing her experience. Since then, shes been approached by dozens of women friends, family, and even total strangers at races and running classes to thank her for sharing her story, many confessing that they never felt comfortable telling people about their own abortions. Shame and stigma are powerful weapons for the anti-abortion movement.
And me? While Ive never denied or covered up the experience, Ive never before written about it. I thought of it as Lizs story to tell but, with her consent, its my story, too.
Abortion is often branded a womans right to choose. While millions of women have benefitted from safe, legal abortion, so have millions of men like me though many of us might not know it. Nearly one in four women under age 45 have had an abortion. The stories Liz heard prove that many women keep their abortions secret including, often, from the men who played their part.
So, gentlemen, theres a fair-to-good chance that you, too, have benefited from the right to reproductive choice. Maybe you know it, maybe you dont. And those of you who have children, Im talking to you, too: More than half of women who have abortions are already mothers.
Thanks to the state of Utah, we know our baby would have been due any day now, had Liz chosen (or been forced) to carry the pregnancy to term. She and I could be overhauling our lives to accommodate the child we never wanted. Instead, thanks to the availability of safe, legal abortion, we are both free to pursue the lives we choose.
Christopher Keelty writes fiction, essays, cartoons, and way too many tweets. He lives with his partner in New York City. You can find him at ChristopherKeelty.com or on Twitter @keeltyc.
Notice how the sick twisted demented morons that murder their baby have to write thousands and thousands of words describing how good they feel about their decision to murder their baby
And hes demented Holly weird actresses that want to get up there and protest stayed how happy they are that they murdered their baby
theres a real winners
Look idiots when you murder your baby youre going to carry that knowledge with you for the rest of your life when you see other people and their children theyre happy children theyre playing children loving children
youre going to be jealous
youre going to be envious
and youre going to be regretful
Dont compound your air by trying to get out there and see how happy you are that you murdered your baby and say that youre so happy that you did it
By that act. youre severely compounding the mental illness that youve cost yourself by that act
No.
Your hyperbole only reinforces the conviction.
Bite me!
This is an object lesson for my long-standing contention: the only difference between a pro-life woman, and a pro-choice woman is their view on abortion.
Yeah, Im sure all those Choice advocates on tv, newspapers, college campi, etc. are all in drag.
Id rather just mock you for making asinine assertions out of tangential anecdotes.
Wow. Such a profound statement from a true daughter of Eve. I think back to Eden and what it must have been like for God to reveal her to Adam for the first time.
And then my mind goes to all the false idols of secular environmentalism: the natural living or back to nature mandate, the veganism, peace, and free love and how fruitless and devoid of meaning all those concepts are, alongside unnatural birth control..
You’ve written to every woman on this post who has an opinion that doesn’t support loading all the evils in the world onto women alone. This simply reasserts my opinion that there are men on FR who simply loathe women. Many of us (men and women) have asked the mods what’s up with this but we get no answers.
How can anyone possibly write such gibberish? Sounds like pig Latin meant to be a serious language.
Men live alone when young. Women live alone when older.
Wait till he gets his first one.
You forgot one little, tiny difference.
The pro-fascination woman has a dead baby.
The pro-life woman has a live child.
I know, I know...
Small details can be the pits.
This man places no value on his own child’s life so he saw abortion as a benefit to him. That is bad enough but further he thinks other men must feel the same way he does so they have benefited too, this article is trying to convince men of that benefit.
Since this article is written from the man’s point of view, what gives him the right to assume that all or even most men support abortion? What makes him think other men or most other men would see it as a benefit if their own child was murdered?
A man that does not value his child’s life does not truly value life. What if his “partner” instead of becoming pregnant had been diagnosed with serious cancer? Would that have messed up his plans? Would he have aborted the relationship? I am sure he would have; maybe not right away but when he realized how inconvenient it can be to have a “partner” with life threatening illness I am sure he would have skipped out on her.
Life is tough, many things are not convenient but real caring people deal with it, tough it out, give it all they have to make it work.
Children are a gift from God, they are a most precious gift. Anyone that cannot see that is not a person I would “partner” up with even if pregnancy were not possible. I would never trust that they would be there for me when I needed them most.
What about her, does he think she will be there for him when he needs her the most? Or does he worry that he will become inconvenient to her and she will abort him when he is at his most vulnerable?
The abortion issue is not just about abortion, it is about the value of human life.
Not at all. My comment sailing unimpeded over your head says nothing about my attention to detail.
Ive written to every PERSON on this thread who has tried to mitigate womens sole and singular responsibility for abortion by conflating it with getting pregnant.
Agency is not something you get to put on and off like a pair of heels. You dont get to deny your own agency, then complain about being objectified; at least not without forfeiting your intellectual integrity with the same assertion.
This simply reasserts my opinion that there are men on FR who simply loathe women.
And like your above comment, youre simply denying your agency by asserting men on FR loathe women when what they actually loathe is women like you.
I have been married to the same first wife for 35 years now, and I can assure you that could not have happened if MY wife EVER displayed the same level of duplicity and chauvinism you have evinced in one, single post.
Many of us (men and women) have asked the mods whats up with this but we get no answers.
Perhaps that is because the mods recognize the same lack of integrity, and drive to silence legitimate dissent men on FR who simply loathe women do.
LOL
You are an inveterate woman hater here on FR. I have no use for you and your stupid comments about me are simply water off a duck’s back.
Such a pity.
You could learn much from Oberlin.
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