God’s ways may be different than our own desires. Putting complete trust in Him is hard.. sometimes we have to for there is no other way to get through a situation.
My son was not healed from leukemia.. though I know God can.. but God revealed His hand via a vision to my son. What he saw and what was told to him, changed him completely. Peace and no fear. God knows our future and I have to trust He knew what was best for my son. Along with the visit to my son, God gives peace to me who wanted my son to live more than anything. The vision showed him who Jesus is and what Heaven has to offer. It was transforming.. Why would anyone turn away from God when eternity is forever and the offer is the best we will ever get... what stands in the way, is PRIDE. If this life seems hard, dying and not knowing God is worse and it’s forever. Being lost is heart breaking and lonely. Knowing the Lord is having a Friend who can walk us through anything.
I believe in God, I am just not convinced he is a loving God at this point, He might be more like Allah.