Why yes, yes he did, which is why he called me right before he pulled the trigger. He apologized for what he was about to do, but he said that he knew I would understand. It was a most considerate suicide. He told me not to feel guilty, no blame, no shame and he thanked me for helping keep him here as long as he could stand it.
I am so sorry.
Although I am stunned that he called you, most if not the vast majority, would not call, nor care. However, his thinking was still that his problems were more important than his actions affect on you. All suicides hurt far more people than anyone wants to believe.
In addition, I cannot imagine there were no internal conflicts within your own mind about the situation.