A night or two ago, I passed by a video of her dancing some kind of victory dance in her underwear. It was mesmerizing and revolting at the same time. I could only look on in horror as the tragedy unfolded. I am forever damaged by it, frankly. I feel assaulted.
I’m truly sorry for your experience. It’s understandable that you would be traumatized. Please don’t rule out treatment for PTSD. I’ve heard it’s very helpful.