I have been taught that it is important to differentiate the symptoms and the disease. And "want to" a. k. a. will power, is highly over rated. In my experience.
The will to win is the strongest motivator.
How afraid are you, and what will you do if you're backed into a corner by a violent man who IS going to kill you and what will you do to stop him or at least put up a good fightr against his intentions ?
THAT'S when you'll quit smoking .. cold turkey
I smoked two to three packs a day of menthols for over 40 years
Two years ago I quit after aforementioned scare
Too late ... got emphasema
Now .......... life is not fun ... it's a necessity.