I wish I could offer more than words of comfort.
Although not close to losing my wife, I lost my mom with whom I was very close years ago and there is still a hole there. Time is like ice — it numbs but nothing can heal such a loss.
I CAN tell you that FReepers really care and you will have many prayers, starting with mine, for today and all days. Holidays will be the hardest — stay near your family and loved ones. You don’t have to participate in anything, just be near and know they love you.
God bless you and a prayer ping to some of the prayer warriors I know. (there are many)
Blessed Christmas to you.
I understand, when my dad passed I didn’t think that anything or anybody could fill that void, but lo and behold it was the memory and love of my Dad that actually filled that void. it took time and tho my husband was a snorer, when he while sleeping was silent i would shake him until i could hear him snoring away. I didn’t like the silence. We creatures of God are so strange.