Keep rereading it, or maybe I'm not telling it in the right way. You are 100% blameless. You did ALL you were capable of. That is plenty! Don't pollute the memory of your dear companion with regrets, for regret is a terrible and selfish emotion. Instead, treasure the beauty you shared.
Good advice, truly. I will read it again....I’ll probably end up reading it several times, lol.
It ain’t your telling, my friend....you did a wonderful job of it.
I’ve wondered how you were doing, Laz, and figured you were letting yourself feel what you needed to feel -— in you own way -— after your trying and emotional last few days and hours with Cathy. Her place in your life is still there, and she is still giving with her dear spirit.
I knew you planned to put thoughts in writing, and I must say that this was above and beyond! Lots to read and reread, and to bookmark for times to come in the future.
But in post 47, you also said something that hit home with me. You said that “ ——— for regret is a terrible and selfish emotion. Instead, treasure the beauty you shared.” I’ve written about the horror of losing a dear sweet one - Teddy- because of a pack of dogs. I’d come to terms with it, some time ago, but the ‘what ifs’ have remained. That DOES pollute my memories in a selfish way. I never thought of it like that. Time to toss it, and treasure what we shared.
Thank you.